From Outside, In

The meaning of Mellix's is saying she is apart of something but doesn't feel welcomed. The ways it reflects her journey ion the personal narrative she described is that she use to she black English and wasn't treated the same as someone who would speak standard English. She still spoke English but it wasn't proper English, therefore she was outside looking in. She learned how to speak English in a more proper and understanding manner, then she started to feel comfortable. Mellix would use "black" English when shes with friends or family, and use standard English out in public such as school or work. She learned when, where, and how to use her two languages properly. She didn't mind the "doubleness" of speaking to whites and speaking to blacks, but it can get a little overwhelming. She wouldn't want to sound as if she doesn't know how to speak standard English.